Following my dear friend Annika,
i'm gonna leave this LJ.

I've had it for a year and looking back at all my entries,
i've -aswell- changed too much to identify myself with my old blogs.

This was a year in wich loads of stuff happened,
good things, but also things that were hard on me.

As i officially started school - exam year- today,
i thought i wanted a new start.


So for those of you who want to keep reading my entries:

hotgingertea 

I've been listening to this song all day long,
thought i'd share (:

You're skin , oh yeah your skin bones,
turn into something beautiful.
And you know ,
you know i love you so
You know i Love you so.

I'm in love with his work, it's beautiful to no end.

Some additional good news: i PASSED this year. Only my final year is still left. I'm so relieved!
Now that school is over, i found myself some time to get creative a bit more,
something i've been missing for realz.
( This painting i'm working on.. )

So, here i am.
Sitting in front of my pc, typing these words.
To be honest, i feel lonely. I feel like calling someone, Marc, Colina, Mirjam, maybe Marije?
Or someone else who has the time to
have some fun tonight.

Last 5, 6 weeks have been amazing, i was with either my friends
or lover. And now, tonight, i don't have any plans.
And it makes me feel kind of anxious.

Colina's i-cant- possibly-be-alone-so-i-have-to-go-out-there-and-have-fun-with-friends-flu has got me right there.
Maybe it's time for me to sit back and relax.


Btw i will see these guys the 23th of Novembre:

FUCKING CRAP SHIT .

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH >_<

dont.wanna.talk/work/study/eat/drink/be.


Why.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

i suck at LIFE, my friends.

I honestly do.

Now exuse me, while i go scream in my pillow, thankyou.

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just plain fuckingRETARDEDNESS.

This was the best week out of my life. I honestly could go and die and everything would be fine,
because i pretty much have had the best time of my life already.
I could write books about how fun it was and how much i loved having Danie over and how much we spazzed over practically anything,
and how i HATED it when she left, just an hour ago. we totally didnt cry like sad little love birds
But i believe pictures say more than a thousand words, obviously.

enjoy our retardedness, while it's still hot.

( You can find me in da club. )

So basically this was just A to the fucking MAZING. I wish i could write more about it, but my brain really died on me, because it couldnt deal with all the awesomeness.
This definatly was the best birthday ever *bliss*

Peace out, bro's.
*o*<3

It just hit me:
sometimes you can come into someone's life,
at the wrong time.

But that's okay.

I GOT PICKPOCKETED.
*headdesk*
Pfff i was so shocked when i found out that some bastard actually took my wallet, i mean\
he WAS in my bag to take out my wallet, how scary is that.
He could've taken anything and i wouldnt of have noticed.
He couldve taken my camera, even.

But he didnt: all he (or she?) only took my wallet and my energy bar (like, whut? -___- you make an pethatic pickpocker when you take someone's energybar *snorts*), my wallet wich had 25 euro in it and all of my important stuff like my passport and stuff.
Thanks a lot.

So you can imagine i was pretty much pissed off, but when i was on my way to my friend's place, i saw two cars alongside the road,
who got into an car accident and that made me think:
Damn that's way worse than losing you wallet. Bless them.
So my mood sort of brightened (and no one go hurt in the accident, luckily)

We're having a great time over here, our homemade dinner was delicious:




And also:
Brownies with a white chocolate layer:


Ten pounds to be added later on :D

And because we it's become a tradition we bought a new horror movie:
 
*shudders loads*
It sure does look like it's gonna be a good movie.

Last but not least, some camwhore-ing with a special appearance of our feet:

So i've been away for a week,
wich isn't that long, however long enough to make up my mind.

I came to the conclusion that I really did miss boring my friends with my random blurrs,
so now, I am back.

Buttt ~ things are gonna be different. Today I decided that things need to change in my life.
I'm glad things are going upwards for me the last half year or so,
but some things keep sticking on me like honey on a bee.
If that's even an existing expression, if not, i like it anyways.

I'm actually really sick of being a coward, 'cos honestly: that's what I am.
So I'm gonna face shit from now on,
and leave stuff that aren't worthy of my time.
I am gonna change my focus of life and I don't want to do anything anymore that i do not want.
And i don't mean that in a child-like way: i mean  that i don't want other people to push me around anymore.
I'm sick of the wondering, doubting, fearing, because it won't change anything about anything.


RIght now i feel really energized, even though i lack sleep.

Tai Chi Qi Gong tonight. To be honest, I really don't have a freaking clue what it's like.
It better be loads of fun.

Oh and for alll of you to admire it's sexyness:
i simply couldn't resist. ._.<3

 

And. Im in love with my new layout.<3

I havn't been feeling this happy for ages.
It could be the christmas lights, it could be the cheerful people everywhere,
or it could just be that i feel great about my life at this point.

Ive got amaaaazing friends,
I learn and experience amazing things lately,
i feel at ease with myself,
I have an awesome future ahead,
I know what i want and what i dont want and just.
Yeah. Lots of awesomeness.

Anywaysss;
i want to wish all of you a very very merry christmas en also an amazing new year.
Make something out of it,
although im sure you guys will.<3

I love you n__n